A bit of light.

This one time, we stayed at a boutique hostel when we visited Bangkok. It was so intricately put together I would’ve gone away with only great memories of it, but as luck would have it, I lost my new tablet computer in the room, got so upset over the handling of the issue, and never went back again.

Side note: I am surprised my expired Solaris 100 film turned out at all!

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Retro Colony

These were taken a fairly long time ago, back when furniture store Retro Colony was still located at this dreamy, light-abundant space off Nemesu Ave. I usually hesitate to use black and white film because I really hate the idea of compromising colour, but I am so glad I popped one into my camera that day. The light streaming in really helped to accentuate the details of the photographed.

Dear 18-year-old self

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I wish I had met you earlier.

Then I would have pulled you aside and told you to be brave. Don’t let the weight of someone else’s words (and everyone else’s abilities) crush you or stop you from becoming who you can be. Confidence is such a strange thing isn’t it? It takes only a moment to trample it, but years to build. You will be comforted to know that it is something you gain with age and wisdom.

I would have asked you to go to bed, instead of falling asleep at your desk every night, buried under the weight of your daily stresses. If you are going to learn effectively, you are going to need your sleep.

I would have told you to own up to your faults, but never let incidents define you.

I would have reminded you that everything will be fine eventually.  You can afford to make a couple of “wrong” turns at eighteen. You are at the peak of your youth, and there are so many options, so many roads to take… so much future.

I would have told you I missed writing the way you do.

And that I am proud of you for giving your time generously to those who needed it.

Finally, I would have asked you to be patient. When the system you only know asks of you to go faster, to be better, to beat the rest, it is hard to fathom what slowing down would entail. Be consoled, that sometime in the near future, you will make sure to enjoy this world unreservedly. You will continue to make memories in the way you love best, in words and pictures. You will trod the roads of new territories, and soak in the cultures of their people. You will do it slowly, because there is no other way to do it.